Thursday, September 30, 2010

Life as we know it

Life as we know it here in America is an odd thing. I, a middle class blue collar worker bee, have it pretty good. In a slipping economy I have a good job with benefits. I own a nice house in the country (well, own as long as I continue to make my payments...). My wife has a nice car to drive. I have tons of friends and nearby family. Most importantly, I have a personal relationship with my Papa God and I am free to make the most of it.
So then why do I struggle so much? Why does it seem so hard all the time? Why do I have a difficult time with work? Why do I struggle to appreciate my house and cars and all that stuff that is really a gift? Am I spoiled? Am I materialistic?
I have been coming more and more into the knowledge that the world has completely and totally turned logic around from what it was designed to be. So much of what we take for "natural law" isn't natural at all, but rather satan spawned. I want to badly to move from a life of brain knowledge to a life of experiential knowledge. I want to live out what I know. Truth is only as useful as it is applied. "Know the truth and the truth will set you free" doesn't mean that we find things out and are just happy with knowing them. We wouldn't discover the cure to aids and think "Oh good! Now I know the cure for aids I can just wait to die and die happy". Heck no! We would take that knowledge and apply to life. Not just our life but all life and in doing so, improve the quality of that life for MILLIONS!!! So why do we take the spiritual truth we know and act happy knowing it? Why don't we take that knowledge and share it with everyone? I know that many people do, but many more don't. I am so tired of living life to achieve the American Dream. I don't want to work for money! I hate it! I want to work for people. I know that you are supposed to work for God not matter what you are doing but I struggle with that. I try to have a good attitude and do a good job regardless of what I am doing, but I really want to work somewhere that makes a direct and positive difference in peoples lives.