Moderation

The key to living right. Moderation. Well, in most respects. There are a few areas in life where moderation is simply an impediment. In the majority of other areas however, moderation makes the river of life flow smoothly and calmly. I am very good at moderating certain areas of my life that other people have a lot of trouble with. Alchohol for instance. I know a lot of people who enjoy it, but have a lot of difficulty just enjoying one or two. They often enjoy 6 or 12. That is just simply not a struggle for me. On the other hand, put a situation in front of me that has a directy relationship between its level of danger and its adrenaline output and I don't always use my better judgement. Contrary to popular belief, I often consider the outcome and the consequenses. I envision what could happen if things go wrong, and if they go right. I don't often just "go for it" without at least some thought. Often enough though, I consider either worth the risk or I underestimate the situation. For instance, I was once going swimming with some friends. The swimming hole was below a high bridge. It was probably sixty feet or so. I had determined before we even went that it would not be worth it to me to jump off because if I was to get hurt I would not be able to go to Brazil like I had planned. Some of the other young fellows were plannning to jump however and so we watched from below as they tried to work up their courage. They had been going on and on about how they were going to jump and basically how tough they were, only after about 15 minutes or maybe even 20, neither of them had gone. I do my best to "walk my talk" and when people brag and boast and then don't back it up, it annoys me greatly. I was so annoyed in fact that I went up on that bridge, readyed myself and after 5 or 10 minutes of making sure I was in just the right position, I jumped. OH BOY was it fun. Falling for multiple seconds and hitting so hard that I was turned completely upside down in the water. After I went, of course the others went as well, but I had to be the first. I had to show them up. And of course I did it again some time later. Fun? Yes! Adrenaline? Very much. Stupid? Yes again. That is where my battle lies, in the listening to the better judgment God gave me. One needn't live in fear, but one should not be foolish either.

Pain :)

Okay so right now I'm not in much pain, but that is because I'm sitting in just the perfect position. If I move to the left or right, I'm gonna be in more pain. Its amazing how many movements can cause a bruised rib to bite you. My stomach muscles are not nearly as sore as yesterday, which is nice, but my side is still very tender. Hmm, what to do, what to do.....

The rollercoaster

Life is such a rollercoaster. It may be clicke` but I don't care. One moment you are riding high some victory, achievement, or success and the next you take a sucker punch to the gonads. It almost makes one feel fear when confronted with something to rejoice about because there is always the wonder about what evil is about to befall one due to the good that has already come. I know that is not a good attitude, but it is so totally frustrating when it feels like there is no straight up good thing. God is good yes, and all He does is good, but the world is evil and it uses us for its whipping boy to get back at God for doing and being good. I know He has us in the palm of His hand and He won't give us more than we can handle, I know that very well. I am just sick of the negative side of life. I guess thats how it works though, you take the bad with the good and vice versa. I am going to do my best to just focus on the good parts of life and giving God glory, but those negative sides are sure in your face.



Stupid Devil.



Bleh.