Lets sing about sex!

Wham Bam Thank you Ma'am!
That's what they say when they get all done
No need to talk it out
Just be a man and do it son

Its okay to enjoy yourself
Its okay if it feels nice
Theres nothing wrong with letting go
Its not like you're gonna do it twice

One night on the town
One night back in bed
Theres no need to know her name
As long as she has a pretty head

Tell her what she wants to know
At least what she wants to hear
Get her high on booze and drugs
Get her drunk so she'll hold you near

"Come on baby, lets go home
Don't be loud the kids are sleeping
Its okay their moms out of town
Whats wrong, why are you wheeping?"

"You just want to be loved?
Well girl thats why I'm here
As long as you spread your legs
I'll lend you my slimy ears"

Can't you see what your doing?
Destroying lives without a care
Can't you see the pain you're causing?
When your hearts shredded you don't have a spare

But theres more going on than what you see
There is a reality beyond just "you and me"
Hearts are torn, fighting against themselves
Emotions are placed upon the shelf

They think that's what causes pain
But they don't know its useless shame
They could be fulfilled in an instant
The one who truly loves them is not so distant

If you want to feel loved, but not left behind
If you need to be taken care of, not taken advantage of
If life doesn't give you what you feel it should, you are looking in the wrong place

We were meant to have a living breathing awesome intense pleasurable amazing relationship with God and He wants to take care of our every need and desire. If life drags you down, if nothing is fulfilling, if disappointment is all you know, there is a place to turn. Don't worry about people, whether good, bad, or hypocritical, but give God a chance, He won't let you down.

A Quitter

Thats me. Well, it used to be anyways. When I was growing up, I didn't stick to anything. My parents let me walk away from whatever. I quit highschool, I quit football, I quit college, I quit my first job. I know there were reasons, but I learned its easier to just get out instead of plowing ahead. These days I'm not so inclined to give up easily. I have re-learned that its important to stick with the task and see it through to completion. Right now however, I am not feeling very committed. There is a lot going on in my life that is just frustrating the heck out of me. My mom and I decided that something really good needed to happen in our lives. There is good stuff that happens, but it seems there is a lot more bad stuff. I know that there are good things that can come out of every situation through Jesus, but I'm ready for something really good, something big and good to happen. I'm sick of feeling like I'm climbing a shale hill and everytime I try to get a handhold I get cut and the hold breaks. Pretty soon I'm going too be to weak from blood loss to keep climbing. I know God won't ever give me anything I can't handle, but I sure wish He'd throw me a rope soon.

Currently in Life

Right now I'm in the back of my warehouse blogging away during inventory pre-count days. I don't have a lot to do right now thanks to the fact that my boss put someone other than himself in charge of inventory and I'm not going around putting "1" on all our compressors etc.

Some other things though. I know that winter is coming because my fingers are beginning to split right at the corner of the nail. I need to start putting on the lotion before my thumbs follow suit because they take a long time to heal and are very painful.

Last night was our second pre-season b-ball game. We won this time. It was a lot of fun, but not just because we won. Last week I had gotten up before dawn on Saturday to hunt and hike all day, then Sunday I got up before dawn as well. So, that being said, I had very little energy that Sunday night. Well, this time I did VERY little in the physical side of things the whole weekend and so I had energy to spare. I was so hyped up from the game though that when I got home and showered, I couldn't sleep. I ended up reading until 11:30 even though I had to get up at 4:20 this morning to go work at the gym. Before I worked out at the gym. So yeah a little sleepy this morning, but I'm doing okay now.

I was reading a book called "The High King" by Lloyd Alexander that was published in 1968 I think. Its the fifth book in series about a boy named Taran and his dreams of adventure, and how he grows up and learns a lot about life in the process. Its good stuff but I put it on pause so I can read "The Shack". Its very interesting so far and I haven't even gotten to the good parts that everyone has told me about.

Emily and I rented "Lego Indiana Jones: The Original Stories" for our wii yesterday. It is loads of fun. There is a little bit of challenge at times because there is a lot to notice, but it is made for kids so you can't get a game over. You can die and explode into a million pieces as many times as you want and the only penalty is losing money you've collected. We beat both Lego Star Wars games on PS2 so this is next, then batman sometime down the line.

Saturday night Shi and Melissa brought over a game called "Quelf". Zac I know what you are thinking because I couldn't understand Shi on the phone so he said "its kinda like Qu___." So every time someone says Quelf I think of it. It was way fun and way crazy. We had a blast making fools of ourselves.

Sarah when we played I instantly thought of you and Red, as long as he can just have fun if you know what I mean. There is a lot of "Well that's good enough" times. Its definitely a game that is more about creativity than set rules. Except for the RULZ cards that force you to do things like "bah like a goat whenever someone draws a card" or "whenever someone rolls a four you have to hold a pretend video camera and talk like you were filming their turn as a documentary". Oh yeah, fun stuff.

I just noticed I spelled "currently" wrong in the title. Too bad you won't see it. I know I spelled "practice" wrong in my other blog title, but I decided that its an adaptation of the words "practice" and "active", so there.

Anywho, I obviously need to wright more often so that my blogs aren't three hours long. Or something like that.

Mistakes

Mistakes.
They are how we learn, but lets face it, they SUCK!
I hate it when I screw up. Plain and simple. The really frustrating part is that it happens all too often. I often run though situations in my mind, visualizing if you will, only it almost never turns out in "reality" the way it does in my mind. Recently I made an error that will difinitely cause me problems. I have no doubt that I can make it through with my mind intact, however I am not looking forward to the reaction of some when they find out what I've done. It's not against the law nor is it immoral, it does however break certain pre-set rules defined at the beginning of a certain relationship I have.
It's weighing on me.
Oh well, I guess I should just look for what I can learn from it. Too bad I already know and knew in the first place. So why did I go through with it? Maybe because I was half asleep at the time, maybe its because I feel like I want to prove I can do something on my own that will be beneficial. Only thing is, every time I try, I fail. In doing so, I increase appearance of a lack of ability to make good and wise decisions. I know why I screw up though. It's not a mystery. If I took the time to ask Jesus what He though before I went through with stuff, and then acted accordingly, it would be a completely different story.

The reactions will be posted soon, for inevitably, I will be found out.